Issues 16/11/1999

.:: Original Text ::.

1-Dead 
2-Falling Away From Me 
3-Trash 
4-4 You 
5-Beg For Me 
6-Make Me Bad 
7-It's Gonna Go Away 
8-Wake Up 
9-Am I Going Crazy? 
10-Hey Daddy 
11-Somebody Someone 
12-No Way 
13-Let's Get This Party Started 
14-I Wish You Could Be Me 
15-Counting 
16-Dirty 

All I want in life is to be happy (happy)
It seems funny to me
How fucked things can be
Everytime I get ahead
I feel more dead

Pain!

Buried so far away. Into my life of nothing

Sick of the same old things
So I dig a hole, bury pain!
Sick of the same old things 
So I dig a hole, bury pain!

I am so high always.
Burying my life so slowly.

Sick of the same old things
So I dig a hole, bury pain!
Sick of the same old things 
So I dig a hole, bury pain!

It opens my mind to feelings.
Can't face boredom without something.

Sick of the same old things
So I dig a hole, bury pain!
Sick of the same old things 
So I dig a hole, bury pain!

Re-entering my head, feeling like I'm God
With the world around me, can't you feel this pain?
Ripping through my heart! Screaming through my veins!
Nothing I can kill! Screaming a...
Lie! I! Am!

Can't you take my eyes out?
Can't you take my heart?

Away to heart

Good-bye...

Sick of the same old things
So I dig a hole this big
So I dig a hole this...

Pain, pain, pain...

How did it start? 
Well I don't know 
I just feel the craving 
I see flesh and it smells fresh 
and it's just there for the taking 
These little girls, 
they make me feel so goddam exhilerated 
I fill them up, I can't give it up 
The pain, I'm just erasing 

I tell my lies, and I despise 
every second I'm with you 
So I run away 
and you still stay 
So what the fuck is with you? 

Your feelings 
I can't help but rape them 
I'm sorry, I don't feel the same 
My heart inside is constantly hating 
I'm sorry, I just throw you away 

I don't know why I'm so fucking cold 
I don't know why its hurts me 
All I wanna is get with you 
and make the pain go away 
Why do I have a conscience? 
All it does is fuck with me 
Why do I have this torment? 
All I wanna do is fuck it away 

I tell my lies, and I despise 
every second I'm with you 
So I run away 
and you still stay 
So what the fuck is with you? 
Your feelings 
I can't help but rape them 
I'm sorry, I don't feel the same 
My heart inside is constantly hating 
I'm sorry, I just throw you away 

I tell my lies, and I despise 
every second I'm with you 
So I run away 
and you still stay 
So what the fuck is with you? 

Your feelings 
I can't help but rape them 
I'm sorry, I don't feel the same 
My heart inside is constantly hating 
I'm sorry, I just throw you away 

Just throw you away

.:: Beg For Me  ::.

I am watching the rise and fall of my salvation 
There's so much much shit around me 
Such a lack of compassion 

I thought it would be fun and games 
(it would be fun and games) 
Instead it's all the same 
(it's all the same) 
I want something to do 
Need to feel sickness 
In You 

I feel the reason, as it's leaving me 
No, not again 
It's quite deceiving, as I'm feeling 
The flesh made me bad 

All I do is look for you 
I need a fix 
You need it to 
Just to get some sort of attention 
Attention 

What does it mean to you? 
For me, it's somthing I just do 
I want something 
I need to feel the sickness in you 

I feel the reason, as it's leaving me 
No, not again 
It's quite deceiving, as I'm feeling 
The flesh made me bad

Fu.., fu.. fu.., I got this bad cold 
And I got a life, I live it up 
I live it up 

(It's gonna go away) 

I don't want this to go away 
(go away) 
I'm so scared 
(oh so scared) 
I can't think of going on 
We all crumble 
We crumble under pressure 
(pressure) 
Pressure 
(pressure) 

(It's gonna go away) 

.... go live it up 
We're livin it up 

Wake the fuck up! 

Each day, more frightening 
All of us wanna die 
The pressure's tightening 
I don't even want to try 

Should I take all the stupid bullshit 
What makes them think they can get away with it? 
Im not happy 
I wish they'd just... 

Wake the fuck up! 

I can take no more 
What are we fighting for? 
You are my brothers 
Each one I would die for 
Please just let it go 
All our heads are blown 
Let's take the stage 
And remember why we play for 

No more fighting! 
I swear I'm gonna leave 
Talking shit to spite me 
I wish they'd just.. 

Wake the fuck up! 

I can take no more 
What are we fighting for? 
You are my brothers 
Each one I would die for 
Please just let it go 
All our heads are blown 
Let's take the stage 
And remember why we play for 

Remember why we play for 

Am I going crazy? 
Am I insane and dazed? 
Am I too lost to face it? 
And what will it cost 
To escape? 
Nothing is right 
I'm so scared

Let me see (let me see) 
All my life has been (taken) taken 
This demon (haunts me) haunts me 
They're waiting (help me) 
Help me 

You fuck me up 
I'm gagged and bound 
You pick me up 
When I am down 
I cannot live without them 
I do not live without them 

Hey Daddy 
They are taking me 
Away 
Biting 
Facing him (what soul) 
My soul 
They're eating (help me) 
Please help me 

You fuck me up 
I'm gagged and bound 
You pick me up 
When I am down 
I cannot live without them 
I do not live without them 

They say this thing inside me 
Wants to get out 
All it does is scream and shout 
I'm trying not to let them out 
They tell me to hurt myself 
But I'm not gonna listen 

You fuck me up 
I'm gagged and bound 
You pick me up 
When I am down 
I cannot live without them 
I do not live without them 

Hey daddy 
(waiting)

I can't stand to let you win 
I'm just watching you 
And I don't know what to do 
Feeling like a fool inside 
Feeling all that you hide 
Thought you my friend 
Seems it never ends 

I need somebody, someone 
Can somebody help me? 
All I need is some pain 
Not just for me 

Giving you with this and that 
Giving gave me nothing back 
It's all related to 
All the things I do 
Feeling like a fool inside 
Seeing all the things you tried 
I am nothing 

I need somebody, someone 
Can somebody help me? 
All I need is some pain 
Not just for me 

I look, a sign 
I need someone 
Inside, to help me out 
With what 
Im trying 
I'm crying 
I'm frying 
In a pile of 
Shit 
I'm dying 
I'm dying 

I need somebody, somebody, somebody, someone 
I need somebody, somebody, somebody, someone 
Someone 

Lately things won't go my way 
Lately everything is grey 
It feels like something 
It feels like nothing 

So I came too far 
To end up this way 
Feeling like I'm God 
Feeling is no way 

So I'm angry for today 
Anger's the only thing I've made 
It feels like something 
No it's nothing 

So I came too far 
To end up this way 
Feeling like I'm God 
Feeling is no way 

To live this way 
Hating, feeling, falling 
To the place where people haunt me 
I can't help but give up 
Falling to the place where people know me 
I can't wait 
To give them these feelings of hating 
Keeping in side me 
For all to take 
Picking at me 
They're ripping at me 
Ripping at me 

So I came too far 
To end up this way 
Feeling like I'm God 
Feeling is no way 

To live this way

When it's crying 
Take me on second place 
Which you don't often find 
I see a family walking 
Always thinking of 
Being somewhere else in time 
So I fall face down 
In a rut 
I can't seem to get out of 
Please wake me 
Please give me some of it back 
The feelings I had 

Sometimes I wish 
I could be strong like you 
It doesn't matter 
Each time I wake 
I'm somehow feeling the truth 
I can't handle 

Let's get this party started 
I'm sick of begging you 
You make me feel insane 
Which I did to you 
Let's get this party started 
You make me feel insane 
I want to be the one 
To make myself sign 

Time is ticking 
It makes me feel content 
With what I have inside 
Constant paranoia 
Surrounds me 
Everyone I see 
Is out to get me 

So I fall down 
In a rut 
I can't seem to get out of 
Please wake me 
Please give me some of it back 
The feelings I had 

Sometimes I wish 
I could be strong like you 
It doesn't matter 
Each time I wake 
I'm somehow feeling the truth 
I can't handle 

Let's get this party started 
I'm sick of begging you 
You make me feel insane 
Which I did to you 
Let's get this party started 
You make me feel insane 
I want to be the one 
To make myself sign 

You make me feel insane 

Sometimes I wish 
I could be strong like you 
It doesn't matter 
Each time I wake 
I'm somehow feeling the truth 
I can't handle 

Let's get this party started 
I'm sick of begging you 
You make me feel insane 
Which I did to you 
Let's get this party started 
You make me feel insane 
I want to be the one 
To make myself sign

I am going insane 
This shit is all of a pain 
I cannot maintain 
As the shit gnaws at my brain 
I wish you could be me 
And then the shit would see 
How tired I am 
And how shit got the best of me 
At least you could look at me 
While you are ripping me 
You are taking my life and selling it, tehehe 
Why should I complain? 
At least it helps my pain 
I am very cool now 
And it's gossip 'bout my fame 
I am going insane 
This shit is all of a pain 
I cannot maintain 
As the shit gnaws at my brain 
I wish you could be me 
And then the shit would see 
How tired I am 
And how you get the best of me 
At least you could look at me 
While you are ripping me 
You fuckin pussy

I came back 
To face what's growing in my head 
Please get away from me 
Take advantage of what I feel 
Yes you do 
One day you'll beg for me 

So I'm saying nothing 
Each day taking that much more 
As I'm scheming all my fate 
You will be there counting 

You just see me as something you throw around 
You were there for me 
Beating down to the ground 
Yes it always seems 
You take more from me 

So I'm saying nothing 
Each day taking that much more 
As I'm scheming all my fate 
You will be there counting 

It's funny how we've just started 
They get the money for the things on you 
They give ya money, and the girls and the fame 
I only do it for the fun and the games 

It's funny how we've just started 
They get the money for the things on you 
They give ya money, and the girls and the fame 
I only do it for the fun 
That's my game 

So I'm saying nothing 
Each day taking that much more 
As I'm scheming all my fate 
You will be there counting

Keep knocking 
Noones there 
Pouring down 
Near people 

I'm out here 
By myself 
All alone 
Ready to blow my head off! 
I hurt so bad inside 
At least you can see 
The world through my eyes 
It stays the same 
I just wanna laugh again 

Keep hoping 
Nothing to spare 
So my life 
Isn't quite there 
Feel like a whore 
A dirty whore 
Such a whore 
Dirty 

I'm out here 
By myself 
All alone 
Ready to blow my head off! 
I hurt so bad inside 
I wish you could see 
The world through in my eyes 
It stays the same 
I just wanna laugh again 

I'll die again 
I'll die again 
I'll wilt again 
Into you 
You dirty little fuck 
Dirty little fuck 
You dirty little fuck 
Dirty little fuck 

You dirty little fuck 
I will take it 

I hurt so bad inside 
I wish you could see 
The world through my eyes 
It stays the same 
I just wanna laugh again