Invisible Monastery
of Charity and Fraternity

Among the many histories we were sent there is one, the history of a conversion that deserves of being published:

Master, I am writing You while I look at a picture where You are with your twelve apostles in the Last Supper. I see my mother in my mind sitting on the sofa under the picture, with her suffering face because of her disease. Now I am feeling emotions in my heart, in my soul again but I am in peace because I know that she is with You in safe. You love her, Gentleman, you have always loved her, You protect her and she is now beside You who are eternity.

I thank you because she was a wonderful mother, I have faith in you and I know that you are near me. As you know, my light, you could drive Corrado to me; I was far from myself, far from You. I admit that I did not understand what he said about you: I interiorised and meditated them until I could understand. I know that You have saved me though him, I was drowning in the darkness, and You have taken me by the hair, before the last breath. He prayed for me and I saw You with a white dress waiting for me to ask You: "Save me!" You came to me and I felt Your right hand on my head: "Raise Jerusalem! Take your sadness away ". I cried for joy.

My Jesus, I was angry with You and with the entire world, my days were just surviving, my nights were nightmares. Now I feel You, I feel Peace, I feel Love. My prayer is praise for You and Mary. Receiving you in communion with You in the Mass is joy for my soul. When I enter into your church, I feel protect, in dialogue with You...

On Wednesday when I knew that I had to be operated, I said: "Gentleman, I offer You my suffering and shall Your will not mine always be done". Master, I am not sad because I see Your signs; I did not realise that I was destroying me. Evil which dominated my soul, was dominating my body and I could not realise it!

"Corrado, thanks! I opened my eyes and I realised how ill I was!" I can just tell You, Master, and Corrado: "My guilt, my guilt, my maximum guilt". I could not pray any more and now I have no voice because my throat is sickened. I wished a family, a man for not being alone, and my womb is sickened.

During my last telephone call with Corrado, he made me a question about confidence, and said: "Tell me the name of one of your friends to which you entrust completely." I answered: "I am skeptical towards friendship". Many questions followed that answer: "How can I rely on anybody, if I do not entrust to anybody? Have I always doubts? How can I love if I do not love myself?"

Jesus, you have revealed Yourself, you have withdrawn my deafness, faith in You means to have an immediate positive answer to our prayers. I believe Gentleman that all will go in the best way because You are with me, I want to live my life with You and to show to everybody that joy is only in Your Love. Supreme Love is hope! Love makes miracles!

Yesterday, Master, I was in the mountains and I participated to the Sunday’s mass. In the church there was a very beautiful picture of Our Lady of the three hills, wrapping with Her mantle all the mountains below. In that moment I felt wrapped in that mantle too. My heart was throbbing and I remembered Corrado and all the brethren of the Monastery, all the persons loving me, all the persons suffering as I suffered. Then I went on thanking and thanking: this is my life again!

In these days the Gentleman, has given me the possibility to meet some young people who have lost both parents and one sister, the better friend in my infancy.
I saw in their eyes the same anger that I had: I know that it is not your fault; You have won death, You said: "Father, remove this goblet from me". I tried to console them, after asking for your help, and thank to you I was listened to.

Jesus! How could I testify that You are "Hope" if you did not make me credible. I remember Corrado’s words: "Julia, everything has a meaning… "Gentleman, he has often told me about talents. I have always answered that I have no "talents", but he has answered that it is impossible as all people have some talents! With You I could console and have lighting words, in that moment their tears stopped. Master, is this a talent? Soon the moment of my dialogue with Corrado, my teacher of Hope, will arrive: I thank you because this brother makes wonders with You. I praise You for Corrado because a day he will be in your Heaven. He has driven me to You, give him all graces he needs to help many other souls.

Gentleman, this new call to suffering is a purification way, this suffering is to be offered You because You know what suffering means.
I have faith in You and the same faith joins me to Corrado and to the brethren of the Invisible Monastery of Charity and Fraternity and this song rises from my heart:
"I thank You, my God, I am not longer afraid, because with my hand in my friend’s hand, I do not feel fatigue and I look straight ahead because on my way You are: I have no fear, no doubt, because, I feel a great joy in my heart, if I think how lovely you are, God.
He made the sky over us, the sun, the see and the flowers. But the most beautiful gifts of my God are My LIFE and His Love".

A mention to you Corrado, because you have explained me that everybody are part of the "Creation". The Gentleman looks after everybody… A Rose also in the rubbish is always a Rose. Thanks, I love you, I love you all! I heartily embrace you.
Julia